I had an experience yesterday that both shook me up and taught me some valuable lessons.
I was visiting a friend during the day. She has spirit beings who hang out at her place and are active mostly at night. They are quite loud and sound like people walking on the roof/ceiling. It distresses her dog who runs around, whining and barking. During a certain point in the conversation, the talk turned to religion. I noticed the loud walking noise began and thought “that’s odd – normally this occurs at night.” So as I shared my point of view, which is utterly opposed to religious dogma and control, the noise grew louder and more frequent. The dog was really going at it by now.
Then suddenly, out of the blue, I felt a real depletion of my energy and with that, nausea.
“Whew,” I said, leaning back into the couch, taking a breath. “I’m suddenly really tired. I think I may need to go home and take a nap.”
With that came the feelings of spaciness and detachment. If I was grounded in any way prior, I suddenly was not. And yet I didn’t fully notice this- a habit of mine I have been working on changing. If I had been grounded or had taken the time to do so, I would also have noticed that after this attack – the noise calmed down significantly (something I remembered later on).
A few moments later, I left, returned home where I cleansed myself with frankincense, myrrh and cobal resin – just in case what I was starting to think happened (energy attack) did. That helped out some but I knew I had more work to do. For the rest of the day, I felt that sense of detachment and wasn’t sure what to do next.
That is until this morning.
I woke up to anger and lots of it. This energy attack triggered in me deep feelings resulting from a lifelong pattern of being bullied and unable to do a thing about it at the time – only to experience those feelings of “hey this isn’t ok” AFTER the fact – if at all. And much of the time, not saying a word to the offender. Not one damn word.
After I released some long held emotions and started to get some clarity, I determined that I would not be returning to my friend’s house until the beings are energetically removed. I also sent out an energetic message to these beings that it was not ok what they did, would not be tolerated ever again and they were not allowed in my energy space.
Next, I went over the experience in my mind and changed it up. Instead of seeing myself as sitting there, stunned and passive, I saw myself say “what the heck just happened here?” Then I analyzed how I felt and gave myself permission to ground and go within to come to the conclusion(s) at that time instead of some future date or in front of a counselor years later. Lastly, I sent out the message to this being at the time that their behavior was not tolerated and had NO effect on Who I Am.
And finally, I thought about my stone of protection I wear daily – my black tourmaline. I also have them all over my house. These stones help protect against negative energy. Why didn’t it work yesterday, I thought.
The answer was immediate and obvious.
These stones can only do so much. Such a stone is only as powerful as is the human wearing it. And if the human is not solid in Who They Are and grounded, the stone can only offer minimal protection. Such objects are there as back-ups. I Am my Main Source of protection.